Archive for May 7th, 2009
Double life?
I juz have this kinda feeling that I’m living a double life.
Not that I’m a Catwoman or a cheer leader who trying to save the world. Not even close.
I mean, on a daytime I had to go to work to earn decent wages in the end of the month. And at nite, I become a blogger where as I can express my self thru my writing. Which something I love. Something that become my passion once upon a time.Something that I feels right to do and now is the time for me to begin again.
But the thing is, I’ve realized since last month I’m so bz I juz don’t have time to spend in here. Yup, even I’ve so little time to spend after work, I have to juggle between work(again, by that means I’m working extra hours after 6.00p.m), family, social life, leisure and of course, Zul….
So, if I’m leaving office at 9 p.m, I then off to have dinner:
a) at mom’s place…chit-chat2 until 12 then go home straight to bed.
b)with friends…which obviously could take more than hour…until 12 then go home straight to bed.
c) depends on my movie,since wednesday is movie day for us, if showtime at 10 p.m, after 12 a.m go home and straight to bed.
d) juz the two of us but then we always have something to do or somewhere to go..then go home at 12.00 p.m and straight to bed…
See? I’m juz so occupied, time is something I dun have to lead a double life…for instance last month I only posted six entry…pathetic, I know….owh, btw meaning of double life is because the month before I could write almost everyday! Even if it took me after 12.00 a.m!
Surprise? Well, don’t..coz my work are still under control at that moment so I can still sleep less and focus at work (eh, tak busy sangat pun…tak la fokus sangat pun..heheh) but now, I have more responsiblity(more work), to be honest, I can’t think about anything else but work!(aha….that’s y I dun write a lot,haa…! now only I know…not juz my body are tired but my mind are more exhausted!)
Still, in my mind now, leading a double life as this is like having an affair, today, while at work I kept thinking about writing but then I have to shut it off as I have urgent things to do! But when I’m committed working, I started to feel guilty coz I can’t stop thinking to write!
Have u ever been in a situation when u r doing something but on the other hand, u feel that u should be doing something else instead? And deep down in your heart u r trying hard to calm down and not to feel guilty? That’s how I feels.
How I admire some people who can commit to their work and their passion at one go! God, they r juz so lucky!
~sigh~
P/S: Nasib baik esok TGIF, mindset kalo tido lmbt tak per psl dah nak weken… padahal sok ader presentation…lagi! uhuk! (tu la ari tuh ngadu keje boring sgt..nah amik ko! tak bersyukur lagi tu..ish…ish….)
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